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Month: April 2010 (Page 2 of 3)

Kept Safe by God

Recently I have been rereading Gerald May’s very helpful book entitled, “The Dark Night of the Soul.”  It is about the spirituality of St. John of the Cross and Teresa of Avila.  I must admit that over 20 years ago, when I first encountered the concept of the “dark night” I was confused and uncertain as to the biblical basis for the explanation of the dark night.  But I soon came to the awareness, with the help of a spiritual friend, that I was indeed experiencing to dark night.  Since those early encounters, I have experienced the dark night on a rather regular basis.  So looking back in hindsight, I can give testimony to the validity and spiritual benefit of the dark night for myself as a young man. 

The reason for sharing my story is to reflect on a comment on one of May’s insights.”  He states that for John of the cross, God uses the dark night “to darken our awareness in order to keep us safe….the night is dark for our protection.”  When we cry out for God’s help to live as followers of Jesus, he takes us at our word.  He will lead us where we do not want to go.”  Why?  May tells us why.  “We cannot liberate ourselves; our defenses and resistences will not permit it, and we can hurt ourselves in the attempt.  To guide us toward the love that we most desire, we must be taken where we could not and would not go on our own.  And lest we sabotage the journey, we must not know where we are going.”

Trust me, men.  In the dark night, God is setting us free from all our attachments and diseased desires, so that we might experience his love and respond to the deeper longings that God has put in our heart.  This becomes the experience of a wildman; getting in touch with his true passions and desires.  God wants to bring about a transformation in our souls, that leads to freedom for desire, not a freedom from desire.  In other words, God does not want us to become less of a man, but more of a man, being able to express more fully the deepest range of emotions and desires.  The life that God has for us in Jesus is one of liberation not suppression.  Too many men think of a heart-felt relationship with God means suppression of our manliness.  NO.  It is the liberation of our manliness.  But it is done on God’s terms, because we will always mess up the process

So again as it says in AA, we have to let go and let God.  When it comes to our desires and emotions we must confess that our life is unmanageable.  We can’t get bring order to our inner life.  God does this in the dark night.  We have to let go and let the work of God happen on his terms and in his timing.  We have to learn to trust the process.  Trusting the process is the experience of the dark night.  Trust me men, it feels like a dark night when all your familiar spiritual props are taken away.  Think again of Abraham and his walk of faith.  “By an act of faith, Abraham said yes to God’s call to travel to an unknown place that would become his home.  When He left he had no idea where he was going” (Hebrews 11:8 – The Message). 

I will be saying more about the dark night in later blogs.  I have referred to the dark night because I think of the experience as a key component in the development of a wildman.  As I have said in previous post, when a man comes to the threshold and as asked to go into the tunnel, trusting only in the grace and mercy of God, he has a choice.  Either he goes ahead in faith, or he turns back to what is familiar and safe.  He then forfeits opportunity to become a wildman.  I pray that God will raise up a whole new generation of wildmen who will be the salt the light in this day.

April 21st

Devotions from Margaret Silf’s book, The Wayfarer

When we look at our lives and our personal giftings, we come to realize that His love that is being poured into us is alive and active.  God pours himself into the funnel of our lives, and enters the core of our being through the narrow channel that we call our life, our experience. He acts upon us in certain ways, and shares Himself with us, whether we realize it or not. If our lives are free enough to let God pass through them, in a flow of grace, then something will pour out of the other end.  It will show itself in the ways we act and share ourselves.  Will we respond by bringing life and love where there is none?  Will we act co-operatively? Will we act healingly? Will we act uniquely, offering our own personal gifting to the world?

We come into the world with nothing and receive everything. All we can ever hope to do for God is to give Him back what is His own.
When our personal existence here on earth is over we will all have made a difference. We are free to choose if we will leave this world a little fuller of Life than when we arrived or if we leave it diminished.

In our hearts may we desire to be funnels of God’s love in the world. Let us reflect each day if His love is flowing through us and if we are adding flavor to the world around us.

May we be able to pray, “You gave me every gift, and to you I return them. Use each one entirely according to your will. Give me only your love, and your grace, and that is enough for me.”

April 20th

Devotions based on Margaret Silf’s book, The Wayfarer

As we look back on our personal experiences of pain, we will often find it produced great growth in our lives.   In these very places of our brokenness that we thought was a barrier between us and the Lord, may be the very place where we find Him most readily.  “We shine with the light of God only when the scouring pads of experience have stripped away our rough edges and encrustations.”  We need to get in touch with our woundedness  and let these experiences be remembered in the Lord’s presence,  with the knowledge that in Him is a deeper security and peace.

The risen Jesus comes to us often in an ordinary moment that we so easily miss, if we are not looking with the eyes of love.  We must let go of the fears that dominate our lives and keep us captive, afraid to live out some aspect of who we really are.   Jesus wants to break through our blindness of despair and fears of uncertainty and empower us with new hope.

The resurrection is not an end but a new beginning. “We are called forward into the rest of our lives, not as mourner at the foot of our brokenness, but as carriers of the new life that has poured out of that breaking. “ Let us not cling to what is still earthbound but move on to all that lies ahead. Let us move on with empty hands that are free to receive all the gifts that are waiting for us along the forward journey.

April 19th

Devotions based on Margaret Silf’s book, The Wayfarer

As we journey with Jesus we may come to the choice of whether we will follow Him into the place of suffering and hardship. It we do it will cause us to lean on Him as our rock and face the many things that may be unwelcomed to us.

That may also happen in our friendships with others when we must decide if we will go with them through a tough situation or whether we will desire our own comfort and security more. If we choose to be with that friend it will likely lead to life and reflect His attitude of love. “The pathway of extraordinary love, deliberately chooses to cross the threshold of his own suffering and death.”  Do we choose to live true to the core of our being and have the courage to implement those true choices in our real day-to-day experiences?  Jesus chose the way that appeared to lead to the loss of everything, in order to bring us with Him, home to the Father’s heart.

We also need to ask for grace to acknowledge those aspects of ourselves that lead us to betray, deny, abandon, compromise, etc. God wants to redeem these very things within us but we need to open them up to Him. It requires us to expose our hearts to Him for cleansing.  Then He can then strengthen the tendencies in us to be faithful, patient, and trusting.  We may be surprised at the new growth that will take place in our lives, even from those things that were painful!

April 17th

Devotions from Margaret Silf’s book The Wayfarer

What does it mean to live and bear fruit for His kingdom?  Each of us does this in our own unique way as we live out our own unique circumstances and are open to God’s love and grace flowing freely through us..  One thing we all need is humility of spirit.  This calls us to accept the circumstances in which we find ourselves with a positive attitude.  IT means we actively seek to bring life out of those circumstances. We must choose to respond to our particular issues in a life-giving way and thus bring His loving presence to our world. Jesus infused love into every situation. His attitude was always one of forgiving love and mercy to those who waver and fall and find themselves in the captivity of sin. But those who hold others captive through narrowness, and abuse of power He vigorously opposed.    What are our underlying attitudes? Do we respond in loving, life-giving ways?

Even when we are bound by fear or feelings of hopelessness or helplessness we can invite Jesus into those situations and ask Him to touch them with His love. Also when we are rejected by another we can ask Him to set us free from our dependency on the good opinion of others.

May He help us to grow beyond where we are at now and to be opened to His way of living and loving.

God as our “Abba”

Last weekend I was at Scholastic in Duluth working with the sisters particiapting in our spiritual direction program.   Sister Jean gave us the assignment of writing a letter to God, giving us a self-addressed envelope that would be sent to us during the next week.  When I addressed my letter to “Abba” Father, I began to weep.  For a brief time I was not able to stop.  I realized, as a result of that unexpected experience, that I had truly come know God as my “Abba” Father.  I recalled Brennan Manning referring to his “Abba” experience as the most profound of his life.  I am truly grateful to God, for beinig so merciful and gracious to me on my spiritual journey, so that I might know him as my “Abba.”  To know God as “Abba’  is to experience an intimacy with God that is beyond words.  It is a knowing of the heart.  I believe that our Heavenly Father desires all his children to know him as their “abba.”

Coming to an awareness of this relationship is not an achievement or the result of being seen as more worthy then other fellow travelers on the journey.  It is sheer grace and gift.   Awareness of our neediness of intimacy with God and our desire for relationship with Him is the one qualification.  This desire is a natural part of our spiritual DNA, put there by our heavenly Father.  He desires our friendship.  Jesus is the means of fullfilling this desire.  Think of its as coming home to the place you were always meant to be.  Jesus tells us, “The Father has given me all these things to do and say.  This is a unique Father-Son operation, coming out of Father and Son intimacies and knowledge.  No one knows the Son the way the Father does, nor the Father the way the Son does.  But I’m not keeping it to myself.  I’m ready to go over it line by line with anyone willing to listen” (Matt 11:27 – The Message).  Jesus has promised us to continue to make the Father know in his prayer for us in John 17.  “I have made your very being know to them – Who you are and what you do – and continue to make it known,  so that your love for me might be in them exactly as I am in them” (John 17:26 – The Message). 

In my letter to God, I committed myself to be an instrument to be used by “Abba” in any way that he sees fit to help other men know thier heavenly Father as Abba.  A “wildman” is a man who has come to peace in the presence of his heavenly Father.  This means an awareness of knowing his is a child in  the loving care of his Abba.  Understanding a wildman as a child seems like a counterdiction.  But remember the words of Jesus in Matt. 18:3-4, “I tell you the truth, unless you change and become little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.  Therefore, whoever humbles himself  like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”  I recall the words of Twila Paris song from some years ago entitled, “The warrior is a child.”  To the world this just does not make sense.  But for a man who is becoming a wildman it makes perfect sense.  Only when I give up and surrender to Abba do I experience the strength to be a wildman.  Remember the Lord told Paul, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness” ( II Cor 12:9).  A man vulnerable before God is given strength to be strong.  That is the posture of a wildman.

April 16th

Devotions from Margaret Silf’s book, The Wayfarer

The Lord wants us to come into His presence and be real and open to whatever comes up… willing to take off the censorship filters and let Him be God in our lives.  We need to be truthful with Him and with ourselves. Sometimes we pray about everything except the one burning issue in our lives that we don’t want to look at. The author had two people in her life that were giving her grief and she kept pushing them out of her prayers. But instead God wants to be in all of our life and relationships and open to the movements of the Holy Spirit.

Sometimes the seed which has been sown in our hearts seems to grow silently in the darkness and then all of a sudden a new shoot starts to show in our daily life. It seems to amaze us but it is His hidden work.  Often we see the growth of God more easily in others than ourselves. Why not share with others how you notice the Godseed growing and sprouting in their lives and let them do the same for you?

It’s important to stay connected to the Vine as we have all we need to live and grow. 
To journey with the Lord is not a burdensome journey, even though it may lead us through many hardships. The joy it generates in our hearts will make the path easy. He says, “I am he Way on which you walk, the Truth that you are searching for, the Life that will make you fully who you are created to be.”  Let us follow Him as He calls us!

April 15th

Devotions based on Margaret Silf’s book, The Wayfarer

As we journey with the Lord we each have a unique calling.  To me as a housewife Jesus might have said, “Come follow me and I will help you to make a home where God himself may dwell.” To a nurse or Dr. the invitation might be to “Come follow me and I’ll teach you how to heal hearts and souls.”  To a fisherman he might have said, “Come follow me and I will teach you how to fish for the minds and hearts of your fellow men.”  etc

As we feel called to follow the Lord what do we need to take with us on this journey?

1. We need the staple food of Prayer. …constant communion with Him as we listen to Him and take time for Him.

2. We need trust . That comes out of our own helplessness, not from all our achievements.

3. We need integrity….The willingness simply to be true to ourselves with no room for pretensions.

4.  We need readiness…to expect the unexpected and be wakeful to notice God’s presence in our daily lives.

5. Wholeheartedness…to retain enthusiasm that we had when we first came to know the Lord

6. Discernment…to distinguish between what is leading us closer to God and what leads us away from Him. Discernment should continually grow sharper as we exercise it.

7. Detachment…the ability to avoid getting sidetracked and to not depend on things or people.

Let us journey with Him as we spend time together, learning from Him, hearing His wisdom and instruction, listening to His stories, watching Him in action and spending time alone with Him.

April 14th

Devotions based on Margaret Silf’s book, The Wayfarer

“As life moves on, we have to leave behind a phase of our lives that we have grown through, to move on to the uncharted territory of the next stage of our living.”  For most of us the transition is not accomplished without pain, and a degree of fear of all that lies ahead. But there is excitement too, if we have purposely chosen this next step.  Jesus wants us to journey with Him and learn from Him as we walk the road together.  He will not force us to go further than we choose to go. Sometimes this call to move on to a new phase comes with a jolt and we may be tempted to stay in our own comfort zone. But if we do, we will miss the opportunity for transformation. Just as He calls us to become  a living presence of Himself and His love, the enemy seeks to pull us in the opposite way. When we choose to go God’s way there is a sense of rightness and peace. But if we choose the way of the enemy we will feel turmoil at the center of our being as we know we are going off course. May we choose daily for Life in every little thing we do. The core of our being knows that the end is worth the means. May we be willing to face hardship if that is what it takes to live true. There are no short cuts to transformation. “The journey will pass through dark and dangerous places, but ultimate security lies in traveling with God.”

April 13thDevotions from Margaret Silf on Wayfaring

Devotions from Margaret Silf on Wayfaring

We must align our dreams with the dream God is dreaming for us and attune our choices and decisions to the inner compass within us. Just like Mary who gave her consent, we also must make room for Him to make a home within us. As we allow God to become incarnate in us, we have no knowledge of what that will look like but can only trust in faith. But he asks for our willing and wholehearted participation in a living, dynamic process. Often we may have to face scorn when we allow God to become incarnate in our lives. We must expect this even as it happened to Him.
May we also recognize Christ coming to birth in others around us.  “Whenever the Christ in one of us meets the Christ in another, there will be an exchange of gifts.”  Sometimes we might be called to protect the newborn Christ-life in others and take action to help them along the way. Let us also be grateful for the ones who have recognized the Christ-life coming to birth in us and helped us along the way.

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