Canaan’s Rest represents a quiet place “set apart” for the purpose of hearing God's voice, growing in intimacy with the Lord, and being renewed in soul and spirit.

Month: September 2011 (Page 2 of 3)

Sept. 20th

 Devotions from Judy’s heart

Forgiveness is a choice we make, just like cleaning our windshield was yesterday. We could have kept going with all the bugs blocking a clear vision but how much better to have it cleaned!  And you may not believe this, but today as we got gas the manager came out and cleaned every window on our SUV for FREE!. ( He does it for a couple hours every Tuesday afternoon and we came just at the right time.) I thought of how the Lord is the one that washes our windows and forgives us freely. We only had to give permission and then He does it all. Isn’t that something that this should happen after writing this devotional yesterday!
As Florence MacKenzie wrote, “Forgiveness is giving up my right to pay back or get even with someone who has wronged me.” When we look at it this way, we find freedom. She uses the letters of forgiveness to give some helpful pointers.
Face the fact that withholding forgiveness feeds our anger, bitterness and resentment.

Openly admit these feelings to the Lord, for He already knows.

Remind ourselves that God, in Christ, has forgiven us.

Give up the right to pay back our offender.

Invite the Holy Spirit’s help as we begin the process of forgiveness.

View our offender as one whom God will deal with justly.

Embrace the freedom that forgiving our offender brings.

Let us choose to forgive as we have been forgiven much!

Sept. 19th

Devotions from Judy’s heart

Today as Al was napping, I was driving along and kept hearing zap, zap, zap. At 75mph the bugs were hitting the windshield and it got covered over with them so my vision was not as good. It was like a reminder to me of how our spiritual vision gets clouded by unforgiveness in our lives. We had just talked about that yesterday in S.S. as both sides of the split in Nevis are dealing with that. Today I read an article by Florence MacKenzie on the importance of forgiveness. She is not saying our hurts don’t matter as forgiveness doesn’t minimize the offense against us. Forgiveness is not letting the offender get away with it for he is answerable to God and He will deal with that person. Forgiveness is also not forgetting for only God truly forgets our sins and casts them as far as the east is from the west. Forgiveness isn’t even reconciliation. We can forgive but we might never be brought into a right relationship with the person who wronged us as he may not be willing. Forgiveness is not easy and we need the Holy Spirit to help us. Tomorrow I will share more on how to live in forgiveness.

Heart Work

I have been reading Richard Foster’s new book entitled, “The Sancturay of the Soul.”  I assume that most of the readers of this blog are familiar with the writings of Richard Foster.  I stumbled unto his first book back in the late 70’s entitled “The Celebration of Discipline.”  In those days I was fully immersed in the Charismatic Movement.  His book was an early wake up call, forcing me to examine the shallowness of my experience of God.  I consider Foster one of the early pioneers in the evangelical movement that has gone ahead as a scout informing us that there is much more to the Christian life.  What was needed was a new awareness of the great contemplative tradition that had existed from centuries.  Many of us, including myself, had never been introduced to this tradition.  Most was to be found in the Catholic tradition.  Then in the early 80’s I jumped into this vast spiritual stream of historic spirituality.  I have never turned back since jumping into the stream.

Anyway, Foster’s new book talks about “heart work.”  He quotes a 17th century Puritan writer by the name of John Flavel as observing that the “greatest difficulty in conversion, is to win the heart to God, and the greatest difficulty after conversion, is to keep the heart with God….Heart-work is hard work indeed.”  In Rev 3:20 we hear Jesus tells us, ” Here I am!  I stand at the door and knock.”  He is really speaking to  followers, wanting to be welcomed at the center.  He longs to have intimate communion with each of us.  We, however, are easily  distracted and preoccupied with outward affairs.  We content ourselves with good thoughts about God.  But God does not simply dwell in our thoughts.  Think of how limiting that would be.  We cannot contain God in our thoughts.  Intimacy of relationship is a matter of the heart.   We need to practice keeping our heart open to his Spirit.

So there will need to be a renovation of our hearts in order to make the heart a dwelling place for his Spirit.   There is much cleaning up that needs to take place.  As Terea of Avila reflected on the evil in her own heart, she observed, “O my Lord, since it seems You have determined to save me, I beseech Your Majesty…don’t You think it would be good….if the inn where You have to dwell continually would not get so dirty?”  When the Spirit of God comes into your life, he goes to the center.  It from the center that the Spirit radiates out into the rest of our inner life, cleaning the house.  This occurs as we allow him into the dark corners and the hidden cellar of our sin. 

But there is something in us the flees from the light.  “Everyone who makes a practice of doing evil, addicted to denial and illusion, hates God-light and won’t come near it, fearing a painful exposure.  But anyone working and living in truth and reality welcomes God-light so the work can be seen for the God-work it is” (John 3:20-21 – The Message).  These words of Jesus help us to see that heart work is God’s work.  We can’t do the renovation work.  Our task is to be willing to expose the darkness and let the light do the rest.  Trust me men, it works.  I know from my life and many who I have prayed with over the years.

Listen again to Foster on the inner change. “We are utterly, utterly dependent upon God to do this transforming work in us: the work of heart purity, of soul conversion, of inward formation, of life transformation.  This solitery and interior work within the heart is the most important, the most real, the most lasting reality in human life.”  God gives us a new heart and spirit. “And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you.  I will take your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart.  And I will put my Spirit in you so that you will follow my decrees and be careful to obey my regulations” (Ezk 36:26-27 NLT).

Sept. 19th

  Devotions from Judy’s heart

As I shared yesterday, Al is helping with the Spiritual Direction course at St. Scholastica and it is made up of people of all walks of life—from a nun to a Unitarian.  We might think it would be nice if  all of them were alike and on the same page, but in their differences they have something to contribute  to the whole. It’s much like a floral bouquet.  As I look back on our daughter’s wedding, she wanted one big floral arrangement rather than several small ones. It was an awesome one and so huge we could scarcely fit it in our car to take home. It was made of a variety of flowers and even a wood branch to give it a special affect. The Shalom group is so diverse but they make up a beautiful arrangement put together by the Creator’s hand… All in varied colors but all seekers.  Let us appreciate each flower along the way and let God place each of us where He wants. May we thank Him for those He puts next to us and all we are to learn and receive through them too.

Sept. 17th

Devotions from Judy’s heart

Are our blinds pulled? Do we miss the beauty of the Lord because we are closed down? While at the monastery we stayed in the room reserved for priests and pulled the blinds closed at night. But if we never opened them we would miss what God has. We don’t need to let the whole world see us, as we need protection for our vulnerabilities. But God gives us safe places to open up. At daybreak we opened the tall blinds and wow! We saw the sunrise over Lake Superior. It was awesome!  The sun was like a flame red ball on the horizon. Perhaps after dark times in our lives, we appreciate the “daybreaks” even more. Let us not stay locked up behind closed blinds. “He comes in golden splendor, God comes in awesome majesty.”  Job 37:22

Sept. 16th

Devotions from Judy’s heart

Have you noticed how there is “in language” for various groups. In nursing we had our medical terms and language that we all understood. The Lawyers have their legal language too etc. One pastor was saying how we need to learn the language of another when we want to share Christ with them. Sometimes the words we use scares people away, even other pastors. I think in many senses, everyone has their own individual language .  It takes some time to learn their language to see where they are coming from before we can speak into their lives. It says in I Cor. 14:11, “If I do not know the meaning of the language, I will be a foreigner to the speaker “. We must be patient as we listen to another and “learn their  language”, and wait for an opening to share with them. Let us not short circuit the process and rush in and turn people off. Love is willing to be patient.

Sept. 15th

Devotions from Judy’s heart

One day I went for a walk to the garden and the sun was shining and beautiful butterflies accompanied me etc. I just enjoyed it all! But on my way back as I was looking at the trees and clouds, I almost stepped on a snake. It was right on the road before me and had not been there before when I was on my way to the garden. I immediately thought of how we must be alert for the dangers the enemy puts before us. Just because something was safe before does not mean that it is now.  We are warned in I Peter 5 to be watchful for the devil prowls around seeking someone to devour. We are to resist him and be firm in our faith so we can extinguish all the darts he sends at us. ( Eph. 6:16)  He knows the things that trip us up so we are to be alert for he will use every tactic he has to cause us to fall. Each day I like to pray to put on the whole armor of God for myself and for our whole family. (The belt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, shoes shod with the gospel of peace, shield of faith, helmet of salvation, and sword of the Spirit.)  Let us be alert and stand against his schemes!

Sept. 14th

Devotions from Judy’s heart

One day when I went for my prayer walk, I saw a tree that was dead and had not one leaf on it. Soon it will either fall down or Al will cut it down. Sometimes it is hard to tell which ones are dead or simply which ones are losing their leaves in the Fall season. However in the summer it is easy to tell for all the live ones have an abundance of leaves. One day we will be known for our leaves (fruit) or lack of it. In Ecc. 12:14 it says, “For God will bring every deed into judgment with every secret thing, whether good or evil.”  One day we will receive rewards for the deeds we have done. What will he find on our trees? Those things that we did to be seen of others will be like leaves fallen to the ground leaving a bare tree. But those things done in His name will be rewarded…even a cup of cold water.  Let us remember that when we sow righteousness we will reap a sure reward. ( Prov 11:18).

Sept. 13th

Devotions from Judy’s heart

One day I was at a meeting and it was so cold in the place. After about 2 hours, I couldn’t wait to leave the 4 walls and get to my car that had been sitting in the sun. The hot car felt wonderful and when I got home I wrapped myself in a blanket to get warmed up totally. In the afternoon I took a walk in the sun and let the warmth soak down to my bones. In our own lives, why do we want to sit within our 4 walls where it is cold and dark and we can’t feel the warmth of His love? In I Peter 2:9 it says that we were called out of darkness into His marvelous light. So why stick to the familiar rather than venturing out into the warmth of the new? Years ago there was a gal in Ladies’ class who felt she was stuck in a deep hole. I offered to help her to come out of it but she said she didn’t want to because it was familiar. So sad!   We have the promise in Lam. 3:22 that “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases.”  IT is always there for us so why don’t we expose ourselves to the warmth of that love more and more?  Come let us walk in the light of the Lord!  (Isaiah 2:5)

Image Making

To be trully human and fully alive involves enormous vulnerability and risk. It is a journey into maturity.  Most men choose the bondage of addiction over the anxiety and freedom that comes with being fully alive, fully awake and fully aware.  David Benner has pointed out that “the primary function of any addiction is to numb and desensitize.  Task number one is to keep us asleep and unaware”.  Our egos work hard at anesthetizing us to the terrors of real living.  For in real living we will come face to face with the unavoidable mystery of being human.  This we cannot manipulate or control.  We simply are who we are, in all our glory and fallness.  But we are addicted to the illusion of control in our attempt to manipulate the image of self.  It is like being addicted to playing God.  Again it is not reality.  “It is this terror that we most want to control and from which we most want to escape” says Benner.  “The demon in the dark of our inner basement is nothing more or less than our fear of being fully alive.” 

Not only does the need to control distract us from our deep inner fears of being found out,  but addiction help us avoid the “longing to surrender.”  But if men listen to their deepest longings, they point in the direction of surrender to someone bigger then themselves.  For men surrender feels more like defeat or failure.  The ego never wants to admit to surrender.  From early childhood we learned that if we are to receive the love and esteem of others we needed to be in control to seem successful and presentable.  The primary task of the ego is that of controlling our drives and impulses, control of emotions, control of our behavior and control of how others see us.  The ego become like the CEO in the organization of the self.

The key to finding our true self, the self that is created in the image of God, that has been rescued and redeemed by Jesus, and in the process of being restored in our life, is to surrender.  We have to give up the need to create an image of self that fits our sense of reality.  Remember our sense of reality is limited and distorted.  All that work we have done to create an image of self that we think is presentable to the world and who we would like to be has been built on sinking sand.  It takes an enormous amount of work to keep up.  I know – I did it for years.  I am still being set free from my imaging making.  The more I can be truthful about the good, the bad and the ugly in the presence of a loving God, that more I can let go of the image making .  I can testify that it bring freedom and authenticity.  I don’t fear all the dark stuff in my tank nearly as much.  Once you taste the fruits of liberty and freedom, you will not want to go back’  The risk of being more fully alive is worth the surrender

Listen to these words from Jesus in the Message. “What I’m saying is, If you walk around with your nose in the air, you’re going to end up; flat on your face.  But if you’re content to be simply yourself, you will become more than yourself” (Luke 14:11  –  The Message)  I take the idea of “walking around with my nose in the air” as a metaphor of taking pride in my image making.  Sooner or later I will fall on my face, since I have my nose in the air, living in my illusions of self making.  But if I am simply content to be Al Hendrickson in all my glory and woundedness, I can then become more of myself.  This is the self that was created before the foundations of the world.  “Long before he laid down earth’s foundations, he had us in mind, had settled on us as the focus of his love, to be made whole and holy in his love” (Eph 1:4 – The Message)  Wow, God had my image in mind before time.  “No, we neither make or save ourselves.  God does both the making and saving.  He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.”  (Eph 2:10 – The Message).  Remember God does all the making and saving.  Praise the Lord!!

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