As I prepare to write this blog, I confess that I feel as though I have little to say. I know it is the season that I am going through. I struggled with being honest as I write, but in the end I felt that my honesty might speak to some man who reading this blog. My recovering from hip surgery has knocked me for a loop. It is not only the time it takes to get back to normal, but I fret about all the work that needs to be done around our place here on the lake. I must confess, that my wife at this time is my pillar. I confess my weakness.
I have been learning to live once again in a simple trust in the goodness and unfailing love of my heavenly Father. I have held on to passages of scripture that talk of trust. Here are two of them. “When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God whose word I praise – in God I trust and am not afraid (Ps 56:3-4) I literally get afraid at times. It is in those moments that I cling to the Lord in trust. “Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go for to you I entrust my life (Ps 143:8). When I get up in the morning I cling to the reality of God’s unfailing love. I have to depend on the Lord to show me the way.
The image of an abyss has been very helpful for me. If I let my mind go to all the fears, worries and uncertainties that I feel in my life, I find myself sinking into an inner abyss that get my focus off the Lord and on to me. That is not good. The focus needs to be the Lord and not Al and his problems. I identify with the words of the Psalmist in Ps 40:1-2 when he says “I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit; out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock, and gave me a firm place to stand.” My only solid place is in Jesus.
I can testify that I do find firm place to stand. But I must continually practice focusing on the Lord and trusting him. So if you feel like me at times, being drawn into a abyss that has you focused only on you and your issues, I strongly urge you to take the step of simple child like trust and put your life circumstance into the hands of your heavenly Father. His unfailing love will see you through. That is what I am learning to do in new ways as I go through this season of my journey with Christ. Lord, give me grace and be merciful so that I can learn from this season of my life.